I mean, even when in my youth I was so called “normal” in terms of occupation (even tho such a thing doesn’t exist really) and I had a “nOrMaL” job, still I found myself in despair when asked this, tho it was a different kind, may I call it ‘unfulfillment’. But today, my inner dialogue feels more like this:

‘How do I explain to this person standing right in front of me, or even worse and more intimidating, to myself? how do I contribute the best of me to society and the collective of 8 billion people (in my small part of it ofc), and in whatever my craft is in this world, traditionally more or less meaningful and life changing? do I feel like I can fully stand behind it and be proud of my contribution and the return that I get from it? Do I invest the right amount of source energy into it or overdo it\not doing enough?

In my perspective, this is the true definition of an identity crisis, something that I might have struggled with for a long time. TBH, sharing those feelings or even just writing them down, feels strange, unfamiliar and weird… but, as it seems, it might be the right thing to do, if I choose to believe in the cliche of “if you’re going through something, probably someone else is going through the same shit, so you better speak up”.

Moreover, and if going it to depth, I feel like my calling in this world is fluid, just like water - it is moldable and flowable. By choice? I don’t know. But anyways the idea of fluidity and multi-interest in work life and life itself, has always clicked better in my mind.

Even tho I might still, till this day, stumble upon self judgement & criticism while facing this question, I’m not afraid to admit anymore. I’m not afraid to admit as a responsible adult, that yes, my path is & always has been unconventional, which in turn reflects in my work life. Regardless of it, it is my choice how to integrate this part of me into my work & craft, especially as an artist, for the good and the bad.

Lately, I, as a trans Multidisciplinary artist, fashion persona & entrepreneur, have found myself being asked in multiple occasions (and in return asking myself) the glorified question; “WhAt dO YoU Do iN LIfe???”

Personally, as being naturally a multi-dimensional talent & being, I find myself struggling to answer this question.